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There’s a comment I made floating around out there about some celebrity who may or may not have had plastic surgery. Angelina Jolie’s lips? Jennifer Lopez’s butt? Who knows. I don’t even remember.

I was talking with my sister when I realized how ridiculous the conversation I’d been having with another commentator on someone else’s blog was. I said what I said because everything that I heard or read were impressions made on me years ago. I have no way of knowing that what I read or heard was true. Somebody put two pictures in front of me and I was like “Yeah, her lips are totally obviously different between these two photos” and I stuck with the “truth”.

The “truth” is smoke and mirrors.

How would I even know if the photos themselves were real?

What I’ve learned when it comes to the topic is that next to nothing in Hollywood is real. Photos. Videos. Magazine covers. Plastic Surgery. Botox. Extreme diets and exercising. Drugs and alcohol. Six tons of makeup. Everybody’s lying to get money and fame-whore. Whatever. All of its there to manipulate your perception, gratify somebody’s ego, and ultimately get your money. You’ll never know what the heck you’re really looking at, that’s the point. Did you know it’s not against the law to falsify the news? I’m sure this goes double for celebrity gossip news.

So I’ve made a vow to try never to talk about what’s altered or not altered on my blog or anywhere else. I don’t want to objectify those celebrities anymore than they already are objectified, even if they open themselves up to it.

Besides. What’s the point?

Everything in Hollywood is there to create illusions of perfections and someone else’s idea of beauty.

So I don’t bother with Hollywood too much.

Evermore real,

MsQ


I’ve never liked that “Ebony and Ivory” stuff.

Many Black people describe each other as “dark-skinned”. As a child, I never really thought about it but when I was confronted with white people who call all people of color who aren’t pale “dark-skinned”, I began to think.

Maybe I really will be a teacher or professor one day in an “official” capacity and that’s why I’m thinking about this on this level. Maybe I just think too much, one of my overwrought idiosyncrasies.

Whatever the reason, I have adopted a policy of not categorizing brown people as “dark-skinned” based on some theory of relativity when comparing oneself to milk and white chalk. Unless there’s a point, I will not write stories comparing Black people to consumable or exotified things like chocolate, caramel, leopards, cheetahs, lions (no big cats from jungle or plain in general), animals in general, darkness, overdone comparisons and conflation with nature like trees, wood, plants, flowers, and soil.

I will question when people call myself or others “black-skinned”—as in the color, not the socio-political identity (‘B’lack)—in my presence.

I will find other ways to describe brown skin.

There is an entire spectrum of brownness. Unless it’s painted or treated somehow, I don’t even think ebony wood is actually ‘black’. Even coffee isn’t black; anybody who’s ever looked at coffee before (or spilled it) can tell you that coffee is brown—even espresso. All my life I’ve had this threshold in my mind that stops me from thinking of ‘B’lack people as literally ‘black’, even the most beloved brownest of us.

We need to change the way we think about our skin tones, complexions, hues, color-coding, and what have you. I believe that mitigating racism and other forms of oppression means being active about changing the way we think about our bodies on emotional and psychological level. It means breaking down our pathologies about our skin and the overvaluation of “white” skin.

We have to start asking ourselves “What do I/they mean when I/they use the phrase “dark-skinned”.

I love the color black. At one point, most of my wardrobe was black in high school—I was really emo[tive]/empathic in those days. However, even though we may identify politically as ‘B’lack, not literally, the color is perceived in many negative ways and has many negative connotations such as lowness, hypersexuality, darkness, evil, and disease, when it is mapped onto our skin literally. White folks have spent centuries coming up with and solidifying new ways of turning us ‘black’ because we are not white.

Maybe this is just a long way of saying we need to start re-teaching people their primary colors and how to discern nuances.

Out,

~MsQ


the Applebee’s nonsense continues. read Part 1 here.

I’ve never had a really bad experience at an Applebee’s before, not at home in Atlanta or when I lived in Decatur for about a year. I did not take the situation well.

My sister gave me the look with her lips pursed, having seen everything I did while my mom remained oblivious. I said out loud, ”Oh hell naw… Let’s go. Let’s get out here.”

We went next door to Marie Calender’s to eat and I was pissed though I tried not to let it ruin my meal.

Seeing that I in particular was in a bad mood, I think the staff at Marie Calender’s was trying to be sensitive to us. We explained to my mom what she missed while we were all sitting there, waiting to be acknowledged over in the Applebee’s and she agreed with me that we stood go back and fill out a comment card or demand to talk to the manager.

The food at Marie Calender’s was okay-tasty. After spending a totally exorbitant amount on it, I wasn’t thrilled.

We went back next door to the Applebee’s and asked to see the manager.

He came out and we talked to him about what happened, white and/or Latino guy. The first thing he was quick to say was that “We’re not sure it was racism but you all were certainly neglected and that’s money taken away from us that you had to go next door”. He knew the restaurant hadn’t been crowded at all when we came in and spoke in a pretty audible voice.

He took down my name and the phone number to our apartment. Later, the manager called and said he’d looked at the video tape footage of the incident. I spoke with him and felt a little uncomfortable, having forgotten or never thought about the cameras in this restaurant.

The manager came to conclusion that it wasn’t racism or discrimination but we were neglected; he offered to send us something in the mail to compensate us and “bring us back” into the fold with Applebee’s.

We ain’t got nothing in mail yet.

Welcome to Fresno.


Despite the 100-degree dry heat out here, my mom, sister, and I decided to have an outing.

I wasn’t trying to be a delicate, little light-skinned Southern belle (only Black), I just didn’t want to get fried so I used my lucky purple, pink-spotted umbrella as a parasole. My sister had a wicked headache and with her sensitivity to heat because of the MS, she really didn’t want to be out there. But…went we did, vowing to stop by the store and see the extended stay motel mom had stayed in for two months while we rationed a $90 food and necessity budget back home before we got here.

Since I love pho (Vietnamese rice noodle soup), we were going to this pho place that my mom swears by. Instead, we ended up on a two-hour bus trip and barely made it to the store.

I was hot. I was hungry. I was grouchy. I still wanted pho. The pho place would have required us to take another bus down the street so we went into Applebee’s instead.

Upon entering the restaurant, no one greeted us though several of the employees on the floor in Applebee’s t-shirts saw us come in. We waited. No one appeared. So we sat down and waited in the waiting area, usually reserved for when its crowded and taking time to seat folks. For how long, I don’t know. Two minutes. Five minutes. It wasn’t crowded at all so I had no idea why no one was coming to greet us and seat us.

A white woman, her husband, and three small children entered the Applebee’s some time behind us. Immediately, a smiling white female Applebee’s employee appeared and said, “Hi! someone will be right with you.”

She wasn’t talking to us. She didn’t even look at us.

Welcome to Fresno.

 


What race/ethnicity do you identify as, if at all?

Increasingly, in the so-called “post-racial” America, I find that everybody’s trying to tell you what you should call yourself these days racially and ethnically.

Some multiracial/multicultural folks argue that nobody is a 100% anything (i.e. 100% African, 100% Latino, 100% white, etc.).

Some African peoples don’t want anything to do with Black people in America and think most of us are an embarrassment not to be associated with. On the other end of things, so to speak, there are those who believe or argue that ‘Black’ cannot exist without ‘white’ and we were made ‘Black’ when our ancestors were brought to America as slaves; this group believes we should call ourselves ‘African-American’.

Personally, and this is just the honest truth, I’m a little suspicious of the “multiracial-multicultural” craze in the U.S. among people of African descent as just another way of obscuring their African origins out of internalized racism/shame, acculturation, and assimilation.

I view myself as someone who is linked spiritually and by blood to my African ancestors but the truth is that I am several generations removed from the lives in Africa that they had. I grew up in this country with these experiences.

I identify as a Black woman racially and ethnically. At one point in time, this was something to be proud of and say out loud at great risk to your life and social standing. Now it seems to be something that some people of color and the multiracial/multicultural are questioning or trying to do away with.

I will continue to strive towards a better understanding and connection with my identities and subjectivities.

evermore,

Ms. Queenly



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